TDC - Day One

Its 9.35 now and for all intents and purposes the day is over (bar a watching of Stranger than Fiction). Today was mixed, i woke up later than i should of and skipped breakfast. Normally i would grab a litre bottle of chocolate Yazoo and a bar of chocolate and eat that. This would normally keep my sustained till lunch, but i wasn't going to be having any of that today. I am on a diet and i'm going to stick to it. So i filled up 2 bottles of water and set off to uni.

The water lasted all of 2 hours and didn't really feed my hunger. Steve commented that breakfast is the most important meal of the day and i should always have it. I knew he was right, this will have to be started as of tomorrow but none of the usual suguar shit i eat like frosties or sugar puffs, it was gonna have to be either shreaded wheat or wheat-abix. I didnt feel quite right going to the shop and buying oat-abix or (Not-made-from-wheat-made-from-oats-instead-abix).

After uni, i went to join the gym as planned. Got my application form and medical form, so will hand those in tomorrow. Lunch, normally my favourite meal of the day, either a goodfillas or a nice sandwich and crisps from Spar washed down with Irn-Bru. But your not going to find any of those in The Dark Chronicles, so i had 3 bits of Ryvita, with a little bit of low fat cottage cheese. It was fucking disgusting, i hate ryvita, but i realised i hate myslef more for the way i am/look. This reminded me the whole reason im doing this.

Had my eye appointment in the afternoon, and going to get contacts next friday (12th) just one part of changing the way i look. (Im getting blue tinted ones). Went to Sainsburys on the way back for some shopping which consisted of foods, i dont think ive ever actually bought before including Apples, Salmon, Skimmed milk and Shreaded Wheat. But a diets a diet.

Conclusion: The start of the day was hard, i was hungry for most of it and for some reason my thoughts kept wondering back to kissing Sam so, so many months ago. I dont know why really, if it was just the horrible hunger pangs or subconciously i was reminding myself the whole reason i am doing this. So that in the future, it isnt just one kiss, not with Sam obviously, but with someone else. A reltationship and to better myself as a person. To fufill my potential. That memory reminded me how great that kiss felt, but more, what it was like to be happy. And as i finish this first day off, i am feeling happy. Hopefully this will continue, and keep to every promise ive made myself. But still this is only the 1st day and there is a loooong way to go...